Is it the most wonderful time of the year?

I wanted to share with today being Christmas.

The holidays can bring up so many emotions, whether they be good or bad, or even a mix of both.

I know for me today, this was my first Christmas to be able to relax, as I didn’t have to run to 4 houses in one day with my ex. I had a good day, spent with family. However, I noticed as the evening hours approached, I started to get sad.

Old memories with my ex came flooding in, even though I am much happier without him, but we spent 10 Christmases together.

I’ve seen everyone’s pictures on social media today of their significant other and children. I sat and started to wonder, will I ever have that? I want it so very badly but will I ever have it.

Overthinking started consuming me and I got so very sad.

Nothing triggered me. I had a good day today.

It reminded me that I need to self care today and do a check in.

It’s important daily, but especially during the holiday season, to make sure you’re checking in with yourself, making sure you’re okay.

It’s very easy to get swept in to grief, old memories, whatever it may be during the holiday season. Every one of us has dealt with grief and sadness. These feelings always seem to overtake during joyous times of the year.

Please take the time to acknowledge these feelings, don’t bury them. It makes them worse.

Take the time to self care, do something you enjoy/something that brings you happiness that’s healthy, to help ground yourself and keep yourself in this moment.

If you’re struggling this holiday season, you’re not alone. Please reach out to someone. Please reach out to crisis. Please please self care.

You’re loved. You’re needed. You’re a warrior. You’re strong.

Xoxo 💋

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